idk i honestly dont think its our time, i feel like we would be better as friends. i really dont want a “thing” or just talking kind of stuff. im not into it like i was a year ago :/ i really want to make money, make new friends, travel the world, get a new job, just being with family. i spend more than 50 hours a week working and i really dont spend enough time with my parents and my grandma. after working so much and im too tired to talk or too busy i feel like im not the guy you want.
i love you. you know i do. we’ve been through our ups and downs.. i just feel like you need a break from everything and focus solely on yourself. you are your own person. you know whats right and whats wrong. im not always gonna be there staring at my phone waiting for you to text me. dont get me wrong, if you want someone to talk to, yeah im all ears ! but i feel like the timing is wrong cuz you have your last year of school and im still figuring out what to do with my life.
i miss hanging out with friends.. all i do is work my ass off and im just done with the day:( my only day off is tuesday and it sucks !! no one is free soo fuck me uggghh… i gotta push !! make the money and you’ll be fine !! THINK ABOUT THE VACATION IN JANUARY !! VEGAS SHOPPING !!
ive been working a lot this past month or so and ive gone to realize that ive put every ounce of my time and patience towards working my fucking ass off and gaining something out of this coming from wise words from some co workers and my father. tbh i was never that close to my father even though we live in the same house.. which is weird cuz my father works hard everyday so i dont ever get to see him at all and i would only see him on his days off (pretty rare) but since i work with him i get to know that my father is a well respected person and funny on the most part hahaha. you’d think my parents taught me the “value of the dollar” but no… i taught myself. ive always saved up my money so then i could buy things i really want :) like video games and toys. now im older and some what matured, i really want to go places and buy fancy things that i would rely on my parents to buy me on my birthday and christmas. Ever since i started working about almost 5 years ago, i’ve never EVER had to ask my parents for money and im very thankful too :) BACK TO WHAT I WAS SAYING.. just spend your time and money wisely like taking time off and spending money instead of wasting money when you could be making more than working hard as fuck and have a lot more fun :) thats my opinion doe sooo yeahh